Making Changes!

It really is amazing to me to see how much a person can change in the blink of an eye. I know that for me I thought that throughout the years of being Married to Stephen that I really hadnt or wasnt changing very much at all and that whatever changes were happening were very small and for the better. But just being away from Stephen for this past month and a half has shown me how much I have changed already throughout the years and how Quickly I can change for the better. Before Stephen left for Boot Camp we never went to church accept for on the very rare occasion which beleve me was very rare. Our relationship was really good though. We loved each other and our kids, but something was missing... we werent really sure what was missing but we knew that something was. So of course, as many have before us we tried to fill that hole with things that we really shouldnt have... Before I had always thought that we werent so bad off since our only Big flaw was going to church ( or the lack there of. ) But as we continued attempting to find that missing peice we didnt realize the affect that it was having on our relationship. No red flags shot up to tell us that we were hurting ourselves. I guess we should have just known. Because since Stephen has been gone we have missed eachother so much. And we dont want to hurt one another so we have stopped filling our hole the way we were and since we were apart both of us have gone back to attending church. I know to those of you who dont go or go but arent really there you are going to think "yeah one of those stories again, you go back to church and everything gets better" and you are wrong. If anything my life has gotten a ton harder. I have had to make choices that a few years ago would have been easy to make but were so hard since i have changed so much. For those of you who know what is going on in my life right now will understand exactly what I am talking about. But since i have gone back to church, I know that church was what was missing before, and if I would have realized that then I wouldnt be in all of the weirrd and difficult positions that I am in now. But i can tell you this, that because of Stephen being separated from me and me from him we have both realized how very blessed we are... and how much we took one another forgranted. And how much stronger our relationship is now and will be, with each other and our boys. I am just so thankful to have the Church. And I am so thankful that I have my perfect, amazing, wonderful, forgiving, silly, forgetful, loving, caring, thoughtful, sweet husband. And of course my amazing, crazy children that keep me busy and on my toes. I also want to thank everyone that has been there for me through the years and through this tough time.... Thank you!